I Am Not Myself These Days

A Memoir

By Josh Kilmer-Purcell
(Harper Perennial, Paperback, 9780062122490, 320pp.)

Publication Date: November 2011

Other Editions of This Title: Paperback, Compact Disc, Compact Disc, MP3 CD

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I Am Not Myself These Days follows a glittering journey through Manhattan's dark underbelly -- a shocking and surreal world where alter egos reign and subsist (barely) on dark wit and chemicals...a tragic romantic comedy where one begins by rooting for the survival of the relationship and ends by hoping someone simply survives. Kilmer-Purcell is a terrifically gifted new literary voice who straddles the divide between absurdity and normalcy, and stitches them together with surprising humor and lonely poignancy. As Booklist raved "as tart and funny as a Noel Coward play, for Kilmer-Purcell is especially good at dialogue, and, as in Coward's best plays, under the comedy lies the sad truth that even at our best, we are all weak, fallible fools. Again and again in this rich, adventure-filled book, Kilmer-Purcell illustrates the truth of Blake's proverb, 'The road of excess leads to the palace of wisdom.'"

About the Author

Josh Kilmer-Purcell is the bestselling author of the memoir I Am Not Myself These Days and the novel Candy Everybody Wants, and the star of Planet Green's documentary television series The Fabulous Beekman Boys. He and his partner, Brent Ridge, divide their time between Manhattan and the Beekman Farm.

Praise For I Am Not Myself These Days

“[Kilmer-Purcell’s] trenchant memoir captures the madcap rush of the once-closeted arriviste’s first brush with city life, a fall from innocence that still haunts him. . . . He retells the saga . . . with levelheaded grace.”
-Entertainment Weekly, on I Am Not Myself These Days

“Plenty of dishy anecdotes and moments of tragi-camp delight.”
-Washington Post, on I Am Not Myself These Days

“In a word, wonderful.”
-Clive Barker, on I Am Not Myself These Days

“Effortlessly entertaining yet still heartfelt; the romance of life as an escape artist.”
-Kirkus Reviews, on I Am Not Myself These Days

“Filled with witty dialogue, confusing awakenings, and extraordinary situations...Readers will find this tale of good-boy-turned-bad-drag-queen darkly hilarious and entertaining.”
-Library Journal, on I Am Not Myself These Days

“Impossible to look away.”
-Publishers Weekly, on I Am Not Myself These Days

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