White Roses in a Dream (Paperback)
Traits, Patterns and Action Plans
Authorhouse, 9781491841020, 142pp.
Publication Date: December 6, 2013
List Price: 14.95*
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While writing this sequel to my first book, MANipulated Into Fear, There Is Always A Pattern, I couldn't understand how I was able to live the dark side of life while others perceived me as living a happy normal life. I was devastated at the thought of being unemployed now and allowing my relationship with an abuser to affect my family and me, and our lives. I began to realize that I, too, had traits, patterns and action plans, just like Rolf, and that there was always a pattern of abuse within families. Irrational thoughts entered my mind, and I began contemplating ending Rolf's life before he ended mine. In the same vein, if I didn't murder Rolf, I felt the need for me to take my own life to stop living in fear because of Rolf. I was hoping that there was a way for me to control my fear, when one day, I saw white roses and knew that they symbolized new beginnings. Several months later, I left to go on vacation to Germany and hoped that I would be able to leave my feelings of fear behind. Sometimes, one never knows what to expect on a trip. There were times when I felt like Cinderella, had quite an adventure, and wished that I had brought my weapon for protection. When I returned home, something very unexpected happened to me. I had a relationship with a man that seemed to be surreal. One can only continue to pray for white roses in a dream, and hope for a new beginning with their life. It doesn't always have to be a dream.